To be seen and to be truly who I am

I think the most commom mistake we all do is we literally forget how to live our life's. We wake up, work and sleep. This cycle keeps repeating till one day when we look back it just shows an empty life we lived.

STOP. Just stop whatever you're doing and think.

The most beautiful thing we can do is to be pure. There's so much of dirt out there that people intend to forget how beautiful life can be. Be kind to all, show no hatred, respect all differences and no matter how much we grow stay humble. Be ready to make a difference in people's life including yourself.

Live your life to the fullest. Have no fear in trying out new things. Go beyond the limits, have courage when things intend to fall apart and have faith in yourself. Do not settle, free yourself and go as far you can go. This is how you grow as a person and in life. Decide, write it down, tell someone plan your first them and keep going. If it goes well celebrate, if it falls apart break down but get yourself up again. It's okay to fail once in a while, knowing that you tried that will keep you motivated.

Whatever goals you have in your life, remember that being PURE and LIVING LIFE TO THE Fullest should be your main goals. True happiness can't be bought by wealth or fame, but by living your life is what gives you true happiness. This is my goal in life.

'Being happy should be your number one goal in life!'

Work. Work. W.O.R.K

I am so proud of myself, is what I say to myself everyday single day despite of whatever that had happened before. I think positive attitude is they key to a person who is willing to grow and learn new things. In the outside world, not everybody is going to accept you, there are some that will criticise you and put you down for your lackings. The key to move forwards is to listen critisism carefully but accept and change what is necessary. In that way you get to know what are your flaws and strengths. Support each another, be kind to all but know hen to speed up your game.

There key to success is hard work. Michael Jordan has always love sports since young. He even tried out for the basketball team during his high-school but was rejected because of his height of being too short. However he dint give up, he practiced so much that during his senior year in high-school he was selected in the American team. Ever since, his career continued to develop and made it to the NBA at 1994. He had his ups and downs, but still  considered to be the best basketball player in all time. 'I can accept failure, everyone fails at something, but I can't accept not trying' is hat he said. I go by this, no matter how many times we all have fallen, always find back the strength and have the courage to stand up. At the end of the day, our life depends on how much hardworking we have put in to shape it.

'No man is an island'
This means willing to work to gather. Let me share a story with you. There were 2 boys always fight and quarrel everyday. The father of these boys tried stopping them but failed every time. One day he decided to give them each a stick to break it, and with no surprise they broke it easily. Then he gave them a bunch of sticks tied to gather and told them to break it. They tried so hard but failed to do so. Well, why am I sharing this story? In the outside world or your working life, learn how to work together despite of how much you hate doing it. This way your enemies can't break you down. When united nobody or anything can affect you.

So, why am I saying all these you ask? Well, I love being positive to learn and grow, I put my all in everything I do and I act professionally when it comes to working to gather.

 So if anybody who is out there that's planning to employ me, I hope I have a good impression. I'm fun to be with but fearless when is comes to chasing my success. Our success. 💪

Darkness Everywhere

"The Next Scream You Hear May Be Your Own"

I think this quote is pretty obvious that my interest in movies are based on horror. Maybe it is because of the feeling I get after coming to an awful realization or experiencing a deeply unpleasant occurrence, this includes images or situation to prompt reaction in their audience. I don't see a reason why people are afraid or dislike of horror film tho.

Let's go back in time!

CONJURING! Forced or willingly, by chance we all have definitely watched this movie. It is the first installment in The Conjuring series. It was directed by James Wan and released on the 15th of July 2013. I remember watching this movie in the theater with my friends and all I can say is I had the worst experience in watching the movie. Not because the movie was bad but my friends were making a big havoc in the movies that I actually had to babysit them, I felt like a mother with 5 teenage kids, I regretted terribly.

But overall the movie was mind blowing, I actually felt the rush, my hands were sweating, my heart beat was pumping fast and I did not dare to miss out a single scene from the movie, that's how interesting it was.  They say that horror film will actually give you sleepless nights and anxiety problem, but so far I did not have any kind of problem, THANK GOD to that.

There are other horror based movie such as The Cabin in the Woods, Insidious, and latest movies such as The Nun, A Quiet Place and Halloween.

In general, I think it is a most common reason in where people who love watching horror film are usually not afraid but excited by the movie and they are actually willing to endure the terror in order to enjoy a euphoric sense of relief at the end. People may actually enjoy being scared, not just relief when the threat is removed. In other words, horror movie viewers are actually happy to be unhappy.

I actually make short clips and take pictures in places that are said to be haunted,as my love for horror are beyond limitation. Here are some;

Who knows, maybe someday you might see my movies screening in the theaters. As the authors put in,
 "the most pleasant moments of a particular event may also be the most fearful"

Jolly holi

KRABI was lit. It was a 3 days 2 nights trip with my family. It was a long weekend and  sudden plan so we were all packing and rushing to the airport. It was a morning flight so by the time we reached and settle down in krabi was almost evening. We checked in into the hotel, freshened up, and went by the beach side had our dinner and went to bed as the next 2 days was gonna be filled with activities. I had the best experience in snorkeling, sky diving, visiting 9 different islands, an evening with the locals and eating local foods. If you're planning on an adventurous trip, krabi is in the top on my list.

Next stop, PENANG. It was a day trip with my family. The first stop was to Kek Lok Si temple. It's a historical place, and along the way there are small stalls selling clothes and biscuits. Once we reached the top there is a big hole filled with small turtles, and the most exciting part is there is a hundred year old big red turtle. Then later on we went to the Rainbow Top Sky Walk. My legs were shaking when we walked on transparent glass bridge, it felt like I was walking on the air. It was a good experience tho. WAIT. We all know Penang is famous for food. So obviously the next stop would be for food. We went to eat the Penang famous Ayer Itam Asam Laksa. It has been around for almost 40 years. Cendol in a hot weather felt really good too. If you are a explorer and foodie then Penang would be a good choice.

And the final stop would be INDIA. India is filled with temples. It was a 7 day, memorable trip. The flight took about 4 to 5 hours, we landed in Trichy and checked in into a hotel, ate dinner and went to bed as we were tired after the travelling. The rest of the week we travelled to temples such as Rameshwaram, Velankani church, Palani and Tirupathi. I can say that I a bit fatter after the trip as I whacked Briyani the whole week and every place I went. The food there tasted very different from how hindus in Malaysia cook. It is a big YES to me if I were to go back to India.

I lost my India pictures tho, but hey let me share with you my Krabi and Penang trip.

Next vacay depends on the HOLIDAY. 

A hobby a day keeps the doldrums away

Hi everyone. How’s everybody been doing? Its been quite sometime since I posted in my blog. Well, I went hiking this morning and I decided why not write about my hobby instead. So here I am.

I think hobby is one of the ways to really understand about our interest. I mean you’re not forced or it’s a must to do, but if you feel like doing then you just go for it. Coming back to my life, I’ve got several hobbies that include swimming, hiking, badminton and yoga.

I've seen girls who are afraid of the water or the depth of it, I mean once you're in there's no way out unless you know how to swim. Basically it's a survival skill. Well, in my case I got an interest in swimming when I was given an opportunity to attend 2 months course for the past 4 years. In the beginning I was a bit slow but as years went by I slowly picked up the lessons and gradually gained experience. As it is for now, I just cant stop myself from swimming. 

"Chlorine is my kinda of Perfume".


Hiking and badminton is something I do when I'm really free which is mostly on a weekend. I even grab my family with me to do so, nothing is as fun as doing it with family right? My interest in badminton, I got it from my dad, looking at him playing in the courts and friendly tournament had given me an interest in ever since I was young. That is where I decided to take up lessons for 3 years and I even joined the school tournament for it. It was scary at first, but I had to put myself out and follow my father's footsteps. I wouldn't be playing sports if it wasn't for him.

Yoga is something I do on a daily basis. It basically helps me to strengthen my muscles and helps me to gain my flexibility. Don't ask my why I started up yoga, every girl would like to be flexible and shaped up, I mean yoga is one of the most easiest and affordable way to do so. So duhh. 

Well, that's it about my hobby. If it's too long to read then let me just attach a video link below. Excuse the video as it was my first time in actually recording and posting it online. Till we meet again 😘

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vEmEv6vWwdM&t=46s

I.N.S.P.I.R.A.T.I.O.N

Have you ever look up to a person and wonder how can such person actually exist? Oprah Winfrey is one of my favourite person who I look up to. She was born to a single teenage mother and lived with her grandmother at such poverty that she had to wear potato sacks and clothes. When she was 6 her grandmother became ill so she had to move in with her grandmother. At the age of 9, she was raped by her 19 year old cousin. At the age of 14 she moved to nashvile, tendacy to love with her father. This was her turning point. She had an interest in media and and persued her career in television when she was 19. She was the first black female news anchor before the age of 20. Despite that, she was sexually harassed at work and a few months later she was fired because the producer said she was unfit for television news. She started hosting the morning talk show, AM Chicago, and turned it into the highest rating talk show in Chicago. It was then renamed into The Oprah Winfrey Show. He career grew and she's now one of the richest people in America. Inspiring millions of people and constantly helping the community.

Despite of being a women, she got through her hard times and did not let those to be a reason to fail in life. She's a bold women. She's my mother, Rajeswari Vellu Pillai. I've never experience her hardships but she surely never fail to give her best so that we don't have to go through it. We may argue a lot and throw words but at the end if the day she's the one I run to when I have something to talk about. Even though she has a rough day or life, she doesn't fail to feed me, check up on me and provide my needs. I always say that she has no idea what I go through when I'm in pain and always accepted it but to speak truly, I am the one who has no idea how much she has to let go to see her family, us, happy. She has given up so much that no words can say how eternally grateful I am to her.

What both my mom and Oprah Winfrey have in common is that they go by one rule,
'Create the highest, grandest vision possible for your life, because you become what you believe!'
These two women are the most inspiring people in my life.
 An idol online and An idol by my side.